You're thinking now she's going to rant on about 'Why me? Why did this have to happen to me?' No, I haven't had those thoughts.....at least not yet. My bff once said "Why not me?" That's right, after all He allowed his only son to suffer and die for us. Things happen...they happen to anyone.
Matt. 5:45 He causes His sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous.
Actually I am thinking 'why am I not a wreck worrying about this cancer that is inside of me?' Why am I just going on with life as normal? Why do I not break down and bawl when I think of my mom on her birthday or Mother's Day?
I am not saying that I don't cry or have my own pity party now and then, I do, but not very often. An act of kindness will often bring a tear to my eye. Normally tears just run down my face, I am not a sobber....and I'm glad. Was I ever? I don't think so......but my memory is so bad that I am not sure.....not a bad thing in this case.
Sometimes I wonder if I have a heart......I do, I care about a lot of people and things. Maybe I have trained myself not to worry, maybe I trust in God. Guess it's just who I am.
I'm thankful that I am able to 'make hay while the sun shines'. Do you know what that means? I hope I can maintain my good attitude all through this journey until I can say "I'm a survivor."
Thanks for coming along on this journey with me.