Thursday, September 18, 2014

Thoughts On Thursday

1.)  I don't watch a lot of reality TV, mostly I watch HGTV or true crime programs. But I have gotten sucked into Married At First Sight on fyi. Does anyone else watch it? Four experts weeded through all the applicants and found 3 couples they deemed compatible and that agreed to marry the person chosen for them, sight unseen. I think they have 4 weeks to live as a married couple before they decide if they want to stay married or divorce. The idea was so see if commitment can made a marriage work, as opposed to falling in love and then marrying. It's hard work to make a marriage work between 2 strangers. Two of the 3 couples opted to stay married and 6 months later they are still together and happy. It's so cool to see how they have grown. This program reminds me of something our pastor told my many years ago. He said "Love is not a feeling, it's a commitment."
It will be interesting to see if these couples are married at 5 years........

2.)  I guess I am just too stubborn. I see a recipe that looks good and I make it. I prefer to bake. I eat a only a couple pieces, because it doesn't taste as good at it looks, hubby may eat a bit. Then I throw it out, I hate to waste food, but why force myself to eat sweets (unnecessary calories)??? I want to give up my desire for sweets so I don't overdo it again. I want to keep my weight down. I need to get it through my head that I'm satisfied with a small piece, not 2 servings like I used to crave.

Enuf thinking for today.

Wednesday, September 17, 2014

TBT on Wednesday

I found this picture on facebook. I think I am the angel in the upper right, the very solemn one. 
I do recognize some of the students. This was found at our church.
Facebook is so cool.

Monday, September 15, 2014

The Lucky Day and a Few Other Things

Cards and notes still trickle's nice. The other day I was shocked to find, tucked into a card, the gift of a massage and recommendation for the movie The Hundred Foot Journey. Fifteen minutes later I had an appointment for a massage. I had been wanting one since May but just kept putting it off. The bad news is that I can't get in until next month.....let's all pray for a cancellation before then. I am going to see the movie tomorrow. Yes, that was a lucky day!!!

A couple of weeks ago I got my first passport :-) I was going to get it 5 years ago, before the cost increased....but I kept putting that off also. Next year I am ready to go on a trip, I don't know where or with whom, but I'll be ready for it! Since I'm retired I am able to go on short notice.

The way God puts the items I'm looking for, at the thrift store, right in front of me is so amazing. Our 9 year old grandson is here almost every weekend and is growing like a weed. Ever since he was born I've always had everything here for him, his parents were struggling and it was one way I could help. I keep extra clothing here for him so they never have to bring a thing. School has started and it's gotten chilly and I didn't have one pair of decent pants here for him. He goes to church and Sunday school so I try to have him dress in good clothes. One day I went to 2 thrift stores and found 4 pairs of pants for him, now we're set! Nice, eh???

Thanks for stopping by, hope your week is off to a good start!
I't cool and gloomy here, but the weatherman is predicting sun and warmer temps by week's end.

Sunday, September 14, 2014

Contrasts and Choices

Yesterday afternoon, after sleeping Thursday, Thursday night, friday, friday night, and saturday morning, I forced myself to get dressed and attend an informal gathering celebrating my nephew and  niece's wedding and new home. I wanted to post on facebook about what a nice young (20 or so) couple they are but was sure that some other people would take it as a put down to them. It all has to do with the choices we make. The young man joined the National Guard (and served overseas), they got  married young, got pregnant, and purchased a starter home. They have a reliable vehicle. They both work full time. Maybe those weren't the best choices.......some would say furthering your education would have been a better choice for one or both. They seem to be on the right path. I pray it continues.

When I look at another young couple (10 years older) I think the first couple has made decent choices. The 2nd couple has 3 children, the father does not have a full time job, diploma, or drivers license, they don't have insurance, mom works several nights a week, they have had struggles all through their 5 year marriage. Mom and the boys are living with her parents (and have lived there on and off several times). They have always rented apartments/houses and purchased items from a rent to own place. They have nothing.....material possessions are not the end all, but at their ages one would think they'd have something. They chose a different lifestyle and I think it makes all the difference. As an adult who has 'been there' we try to give advice based on what we have learned.....but to the younger generation it's just words. It makes me so sad to see this 2nd couple struggle and to see the children hurting so much. I can't fix it, I can only pray for healing, guidance, and knowledge.

The Bible does not say "the Lord helps those who help themselves".....but I do. I believe we must look at our choices, think them through, and do something to make our lives better.  Where do you want to be 10 years from now? If money is a problem we need to spend less than we make. I also think we are who we hang out with......(I need to find friends with an income of over $180,000/year - applications are being accepted now). If you want to change something and need help, ask for it, find a support group. I know it is easy for me to tell you what to life hasn't been filled with many difficult choices, addictions, or hard times. (Well, some, but I overcame those). For the most part I have always walked the straight and narrow. Wouldn't it be nice to be able to see into the future so we'd know what path to take???

I will step down from my soapbox now and let you on....if you want.

Friday, September 12, 2014

My Blog

Why isn't my blog updating? Nothing shows up in the feed. My posts are there.....just that nobody knows it. I slept almost all day Thursday and all night last night........let's see what today brings. It's cold here, yesterday I turned on the furnace, I can't today b/c hubby is home. It is supposed to warm up this weekend. Have a good one, I'll write a proper post soon.

Thursday, September 11, 2014

Thoughts on Thursday

I am so thankful for all my friends (blogging and personal) who have prayed, left comments, and supported me during this journey. It's not over, but it will be.

  • Now that I only have 6 eyelashes (not an exaggeration) I am happy to hide my eyes behind my glasses.
  • What will my hair look like when it grows back in this fall? Right now I have white peach fuzz.
  • My heart is hurting for several family members who are experiencing troubled times right now. If you care to add them to your prayers it would be appreciated: my sister Sandy, my stepson, and my grandson.
  • After my good news on Monday hubby told me some not so good news. He will be out of a job at the end of this year or early next year. The company he works for offered him a job in FL for 6 weeks there and 1 week home, he refused it. I don't understand him and am not sure what he plans to do. So that's another worry for me.
  • Just before I was time to leave the clinic on Monday the nurse noticed I had an irregular pulse...should I be worried? the Dr said he wasn't.......
  • Just call me Lumpy Linda.....I discovered a big lump behind my right knee (supposedly my good knee). It doesn't hurt and I am guessing it is another Bakers Cyst. sheese
That should be enough to keep me up at night....but no, there's 1 more thought. I have always walked alone, felt like I didn't fit it....and I guess that's how it will be.

Tuesday, September 9, 2014

North Platte , Nebraska

No, I haven't been to North Platte, NE. Nor am I planning a visit, but I do think it is a small town, (pop. 24,000+)  we should know about. It's located in the middle of the state and middle of the country. It's a railroad town and was a hub for passengers trains in the 40's and earlier (until freight trains took over because there was more money to be made that way). It is still a railroad town, 
 Union Pacific Railroad's large Bailey Yard is located within the city.

A friend gave me this book to read and I highly recommend it!
On Christmas day in 1941 a troop train containing service men rolled in to town to refill the water tender for the steam tanks and to lubricate the wheels, about a 10 minute task. This was a normal stop for  about 32 trains every day during WWII. On that day the men were met with smiles and welcoming words from women carrying baskets of food and treats for them. The city mothers were expecting Nebraska soldiers but these were men from all over the country. Never mind, they wanted to thank all the men and women who were serving our country so that act of kindness kept up all through the war years. Once word got out this town of about 12,000 residents had volunteers coming in from cities near and far to help. The women dressed in in their Sunday best so they could give their sincere heartfelt wishes and thanks to the young men and women who passed through. A canteen was opened and free fried chicken, meat sandwiches, real boiled eggs, angel food birthday cakes, real coffee, magazines, and other treats were available to all who entered. They only had about 10 minutes so the service men ran to the canteen and back to the train. The first timers at that stop were flabbergasted that they were treated with such love and respect. The town kept it up until after the war ended, the last day of service was April 1, 1946.
The canteen was funded only by donations. President Roosevelt donated $5 to the canteen. The ordinary citizens donated their time, food, sugar rations, even drove from other states to help.
The author interviewed as many servicemen and volunteers as he was able to. I was afraid it would to be the  same ol' same ol' but it was not. Several were from WI so this book hit home for me....maybe my dad was on one of those trains and was shown such kindness. I will keep this book next to my family tree book....just in case.
The soldiers Mr Green interviewed remembered the canteen, many times the memories brought tears to their eyes. Even when they were overseas the men talked about the canteen. Letters were often exchanged and even a few married girls from North Platte.

Remember just a simple act of kindness can affect a person very deeply.

When the canteen closed the treasury had over $3000 and the monies were used for the soldiers, none given back to volunteers, those who donated, or the city. This kind city and residents should not be forgotten.

Here are some pictures:

Let me know if you've read or heard of this book.
Thanks for stopping by.

Monday, September 8, 2014

Some Thoughtful Cards & Good News

 I have received many wonderful cards these past several months.
This is one that my grandson made last week when Ava was here.
 I am not sure if she collaborated or not....I am sure she most likely helped with survivor and the hyphenating. Yes, I'm working on the misuse of YOUR. How can I not deeply love the young man who made this card?

Pretty cards from more mature friends.

Another beautiful card. 

More cards from grandson J.......when I was putting these back I noticed 2 more cards with Washi tape that I didn't photograph. The big red & green card had the Washi tape wrapped around on the inside also. Told ya the Washi tape was POPULAR. I try to spoil the grands when they come and let them use my supplies....after all it is just stuff and I hope the memories they make will be forever.

Tears of happiness are running down my face this morning.
I am at the clinic having chemo now. Blood work was good, blood pressure was perfect (it never is), and I've lost a total of 12# (even though the dr said I'd probably gain weight), my lump has SHRUNK. The good news is that my dr told me I have ONLY ONE more chemo treatment left!!!!! I thought I had 3 more remaining. I actually gave him a little hug.
I will talk to my surgeon next month and then the time will fly by. 
Thank you EVERYONE for your prayers and love.....I have to stop or I will start crying again.

Sunday, September 7, 2014

I Hate Cancer, I Hate Chemo.....

....and want it all to be over, be gone, outta my life!!! Finally, these past 2 days I feel good and then what? Tomorrow I get to have another round of chemo. I am thankful, only 3 more after that. I hate being so tired all the time that I don't feel like going anywhere or doing anything. I lay in bed but can't sleep.....guess I should be use to that. There are more side effects I experience but I'm not going to elaborate. I'm happy to say that I am taking the chemo very well and can deal with the side effects.

When I was first diagnosed I purchased a pink ribbon key chain, pink ribbon earrings, pink jewelry, baseball cap, and sported my pink hoodie. Right now most of it is safely put away, I don't need that stuff. For Christmas I said I wanted a 'breast cancer survivor' t-shirt or sweatshirt. I planned to get involved with breast cancer survivors somehow, now I am not so sure what I will do.

I just want to get it over with, put it all behind me, get on with my life. It has only been a few months and in a few more months this part of it should be over. I know it's something that will ALWAYS be with me. What I am saying is that I don't want it staring me in the face, I don't want breast cancer to be who I am, I am anxious to get over it (I'm always in a hurry, so that makes sense to me.) I don't need to be constantly reminded of this stage in my life. I am a scrapbooker and was gifted some pink ribbon paper and will scrapbook this part of my life, because it is a PART of me....just like ex-husbands. (I have pics but am not scrapbooking him.)

We are not our illnesses. They are a part of us, but we are so much more!

So NO! I  will not walk around with a cardboard sign around my neck!!!

Friday, September 5, 2014

A Week With My Granddaughter

Ava wanted to make cards and scrapbook while she was here. She got her scrapbook all caught up.

We enjoyed root beer floats.

The boys came over one afternoon. Dress up seems to be one of their favorite activities. 

Grandson J made a scrapbook and lots of cards. The Washi tape was the most popular item I had.

These are just some of the 53 cards A made. 

 She glued smooth stones onto a board. Yes, I actually bought the stones (at the thrift store,of course). It could be used inside or outside.

Everyone is making cards.

On Sunday we went to Kites Over Lake Michigan. Kiters from all over the US come here for this event. 

The day was overcast and we had on light sweatshirts, but it was not cold. I was glad it was not sunny, I need to stay out of the sun. I had a chair with a canopy but my feet and legs were in the open.
Ava's kite is flying high so they decided to relax and have something to each and watch the kites. 

A few of the many kites we saw. 

Ava's favorite scrapbook page.

Another one of her favorite pages.

I ordered some photos of the week she spent here and will make up a couple of pages for her. She does a good job and I enjoy working with her. I wish she lived closer, I know we'd get some serious crafting done. 

Tuesday, September 2, 2014

Out To Lunch

I wish I was only out to lunch. I am so stressed, hurt, tired, angry, confused.....(nothing to do with my cancer). I need some time to gather my thoughts and get my emotions under control before I try to write. I did have a great week with my granddaughter. It should cheer my up to watch the first day of school activities from my window this morning.
God bless you all and I'll be back soon.

Tuesday, August 26, 2014

Shhh.....Don't Tell

My granddaughter and I are involved in a please don't tell. 
We have a plan but we opted to keep part of it a secret so grandson J doesn't get upset and feel left out. Eleven year old granddaughter A and I are going to work on our scrapbooks and make some cards. We need some 'girl time.' We didn't get any when she was here with her siblings in July.
We developed a plan..... and it was hard to plead ignorance when J asked about it this weekend. We even spoke to her on the phone saturday...but A & I kept our lips zipped. 
J knows she will be here next weekend, he LOVES her...but the plan meet her and mom at the mall on Tuesday. My bff and I will leave after lunch and do some shopping (window shopping on my part), eat at the food court, collect A and come back here. She'll order photos for her scrapbook and we'll have several days ALL TO OURSELVES!
It's not it?  

I made a couple of pages for her to use.

I am embarrassed to say this photo is from last year........I am not very punctual. 
Hope she likes it. 
I'll post some of her pages later in the week. Wish us well!

Monday, August 25, 2014

Weekend PotPourri

Since I have been on chemo I am even more of a homebody than usual, I guess I don't mind. This weekend was another quiet, stay at weekend. Hubby is at the golf course all day saturday and Sunday.....that doesn't bother me either. The past couple of Fridays our grandson calls me on friday afternoon to say that mom says he can come over and stay until Sunday.....not asking me, just telling me he's coming over. Guess the other grandparents need a break??? After supper I let him hog my computer and TV, I'll just watch TV in my bed.....I like that plan. Saturday we picked up some groceries.....(not a good plan when he loves to live on junk food and snacks) and we stopped at the farmer's market also for fresh corn on the cob. Later in the day we had more errands to run. Menards had the Cricut tool kit free, with rebate and I just happened to have a $10 rebate so I was good!!! I have a Cameo, not a Cricut, but I wanted a tool kit and they are pretty much the same so I picked that up and bought a bin so I can pack away my summer clothes. I decided to purge in the spring. 
How can I say no to a boy who gives me such notes? How??? I can't. 
I have one on my steering wheel that says "I'm awesome".

This kid is a couch potato so he's not to hard to have here when I am feeling sub-par (like this past weekend). I can't just leave him sit in front of the TV all day. I thought we were going to play a card game, but instead we played army. I don't think I have ever played that before.
Now to play catch up with my housework.
Hope your week is off to a GREAT start!

Thursday, August 21, 2014

Thoughts On Thursday

Yes, I do a lot of thinking.....some nonsensical.....some not.

*Monday as I was getting ready I was thinking that, finally, I can stand to look at my bald self in the one else can....just me.
*Are you a 'what if?' person? I'm not. Do you think of the past and What if this happened instead? or What if I had done this instead of that? That question really never pops into my mind. I'm glad, because it doesn't make any difference, it's in the past. Nothing can change it.
*Grand parenting just isn't what it use to be, actually I'm thinking more about grandmas....because I talk to them more often. I feel so bad for the grandma who hasn't seen her grandsons in over a month because she called social services to turn her son in for child abuse. She had to do the right thing. Another grandma I know hasn't seen her grandson in a month because the estranged father won't return the child to his mom....who is an alcoholic and lives across the state from dad. Her mom and dad pretty much finance the daughter's life, even though she does work. One more grandmother is so stressed about her grandson's upcoming wedding. The young couple said they had everything all taken care of.....One week out and everything is not taken care of. Why are people even bothering grandma with this? 
Some of these grandmas have helped raise the grands and it's time for them to enjoy THEIR lives!!!! Yes, I know some young families need mom and dad to watch their children while they work, but it seems to me too many just just ask too much of mom and dad. Not quite time to get off my soapbox.....when I was raising my children the only time I asked either of our mothers to watch the children was if we both had to work. I know my daughter (the oldest grandchild) did spend some extra time with my mom, but not on a regular basis. OK, I'm stepping down from my soapbox. 
I love seeing our grandson every weekend.

Wednesday, August 20, 2014

Just A Couple Of Things

Today I stopped at the thrift store because I needed one wooden hanger and some shower curtain rings so I could hang up the scarves that had just been tossed around. I don't need any more jackets,...but I found this cute chocolate colored jacket. At first glance I thought it was leather....but it's not.

I tried it on and thought it looked nice, even the sleeves are long enough and it's not too tight across the bust. I like it and for $5 I brought it home. I am not sure what the white spots are on the bottom picture, the jacket is is very good condition.
BTW I did get my hanger and shower rings.

I needed some kind of container to store paper crafting things in and found this snack box to be the perfect size.....ugly though. And I have 2 boxes of old books from my grandma....I got rid of some but still have some. I think she belonged to a book club. After a brainstorm I decided to cover the box with the old book pages and even put one cover on the inside.

Inside every book she had written her name. Another bright idea.....I ripped out her signature and decoupaged it on the front of my container. 

This is a very roughly covered box. I have another and will be more thoughtful on that one. 
I just wanted to share my idea with you.

I caught up on a few minor things this week. It's good to check one or 2 things off my to do list.