Friday, June 24, 2016

Happy Weekend!

I felt good yesterday, just lazy and blah.....so I picked myself a bouquet of flowers from my 'garden' to cheer me up.  I love flowers and think they are so pretty. They smell so sweet. The rose is from a friend, plant given to me years ago, it is an old fashioned plant and I am so glad it comes back every year. When Kevin dug up the area that we are going to 'landscape' this year (I hope) he left it. 


No big plans for the weekend here. Tonight is the car cruise for the TR classic car show tomorrow. We don't have a classic car, tho Kevin used to, but we do drive our convertible in the cruise between cities (7 miles). When we get back to town we'll get a bite to eat and walk around a bit. 
My stomach is weird, not nauseous, but it feels better with food in it. That means I eat often and have gained 3 #. Most people would frown but I am OK with it.
I dropped off my donations at St Vinnie's today....always purging....cleaning stuff out. Of course I had to shop and found a couple of new tops...I need to get another pair of capris...but I hate to try them on.
The weekend is supposed to be gorgeous!!!! and I am going to get outside and enjoy it now before we leave for the car cruise. I hope you have a great weekend!!!!



Tuesday, June 21, 2016

To Drive or Not To Drive?

I am so proud of myself, I kept this planter ALL winter! The winter before it did not make it. I love all the little 'babies' that are hanging over the edge....I had no part in that.
It has finally warmed up and it is so nice to watch the kids play outside, to go for a drive in the convertible, or to just sit on the deck and read. 


Today we are off to Bay Beach (small, inexpensive amusement park) with my girlfriend, step-daughter, and some of the grandkids. Fortunately Deb is driving....I drive a little it in town but will not drive long distances or out of town.
That reminds me......saturday I drove 3 or 4 miles in the country to a farm market to get some produce.....Kev found out about it and he was not too happy. He is worried about my meds affecting my mind. Granted I do take a lot but none of them say that I shouldn't drive. I admit that sometimes I do struggle to think of the correct word, but that doesn't affect my driving. I was more concerned about my neuropathy  and drop foot.  Next week I am going to ask the doctor about it, I am hoping Kevin will be there to hear what he has to say. No one wants to take me to every single place I want to go. Since I'm purging clothes and stuff I have bags to drop off at the thrift store every couple of weeks....with Kev or without him works for me. 
Last week Deb took me thrifting...it was fun and I got a couple of new tops. Of course we had to go for lunch too. 


Sunday, June 19, 2016

It's Painted and I Don't Like it

Our spare bedroom is painted, at last, and I don't like the color. I know Kevin will not  repaint it so I better learn to like it. The walls are light gray, looks white if you just glance at it. The ceiling is white. I have to make up the bed, put up the new curtains, hang up art work, etc. I'll post after photos later. 




Happy Father's Day!
We had a really nice afternoon, Kevin's 2 kids came over for a cookout......of course the grands were over too. The kids have fun....for the most part....they started with a water fight. I don't mind....I have dry clothes for the boys...the girl didn't get that wet. Unfortunately there was too much yelling....the two youngest brothers don't get along. 



It was a beautiful day and nice to visit with the kids and enjoy a good meal. Tomorrow it is back to the real world. 

Tuesday, June 14, 2016

A New Normal?

Is there such a thing as normal?
I checked my dryer... and it is not a setting....not on my mixer...and not on my iron either. So I am not sure what normal is.
Last year I thought I found my 'normal' ....but it was short lived. 



I haven't been searching very long this year....about 4-1/2 months.....but I still want to be 'normal'.
I want to walk normally.
I want to drive normally.
In the past I would often be the person who'd find a place to visit and many times I'd be the driver. I used to want to go places and do things, Now I don't know if I want to leave the house.....how tired will I be? what is my stomach going to feel like? I can't blame people if they don't ask me. Could I be the passenger for a change? I want to get in my car and run to the grocery store for an item I forgot.
I want to dress normally....hair would be nice.
I'm fortunate because my body has not been disfigured, I don't have any pain, my mind still works. 
I don't think any cancer patient ever feels 'normal'. The question "Will my cancer come back? when? where?" always looms in the back of a person's mind.
If  my new 'normal' is what it is today I can handle it.....I can live with some tiredness, my nausea happens at a specific time and doesn't last long, if I walk a little funny - deal with it (I do). Many people wear hats and wigs. If you tell me "Hurry up Grandma", that reflects on your poor upbringing/lack of manners not upon me.
I am blessed with loving, healthy grandchildren; with a nice house to live in; a caring husband who is doing the best he can; with medical insurance; money for food; family that loves me; a working body (for the most part); good friends. I have everything I need! God is good! I'm asking for a few years with my grands and a body that I can get around with.





Sunday, June 12, 2016

What A Weekend..................

 and it's not over yet.
I got a couple of cute cards.....hope you can see them.

 The dog one is about being down in the dumps.
And I just love how Joyce decorates the inside of her cards.

I'm still adjusting to my new meds......it's a teensy bit better.

My driving foot is improving.

We had summer yesterday. We went for a convertible ride later in the afternoon and the thermometer said 90! Today it is 63 and breezy. That's life in Two Rivers, Wi. It was a nice, long drive in the country (except for the liquid manure) odor. Of course we stopped for ice cream.
I wasn't too sure of how the day would end.....you see, Kevin golfed in the morning and he said he'd be home about 2 and paint the bedroom.............that has been a MESS since January. It's a small room and there is no place to go with the furniture. Some times his plans change....but he was right on yesterday. He got his supplies ready.....and I heard some ......swear words from upstairs.....that can't be good. A few minutes later I said: "Don't tell me that was a can of paint falling onto the floor". Yes, that's what it was. I did not go to take a picture or check on him. He's best when left alone...so that is what I did. He scrubbed and scrubbed the carpet and it really isn't too bad.
A couple of hours later he came downstairs, calmly, and said the ceiling is painted and that he used the remainder of the paint as primer for the unpainted walls. He suggested that we go for a ride, so I got dressed and off we went. It was a good ending to what could have been a disastrous day.
He is golfing again this morning.....I can not take that away from him. He has several projects to do this summer and I can't nag too much. Painting the bedroom was my priority. If I hadn't gotten sick I could have done it.
This afternoon we have a graduation party to attend and then some shopping to do.

Have a great Sunday....what's left of it. 
I am never sure of how my morning is going to go so I didn't go to church or the picnic today.

Thursday, June 9, 2016

A Ginger Ale and Cracker Type of Day

Yup, it's a Ginger ale, crackers, and type of day today??? I haven't had chemo for almost a month so you' think I'd feel pretty good, well I was until about a week ago, then I started feeling nauseous in the morning. Some days I'd just feel sick...others I'd actually  be sick, enough said. Chemo patients also often, have other stomach issues, like feeling sick isn't enough????
Yesterday I got my new, oral chemo - capecitabine (Xeloda). My other one is 'only' 5 pills a day, this one is 4 pills twice a day. I started yesterday afternoon and immediately dozed on the couch. This morning I was so tired when it was time to get up. I was sick before I even ate or drank anything but made myself a smoothie anyway, it was OK. I'm glad I don't have the nurse or meals coming today, as I am not dressed, nor do I plan to get dressed. I have plans for friday afternoon but I'm not sure if I will feel like it.
I am hoping I will be able to walk and drive again...soon. I really, really miss being able to get into my car and run errands, etc. 
I'm not exactly sure why, but I just don't feel like doing anything.
Wish me luck and that I can hold off cancer and hang on!!!!

Monday, June 6, 2016

Macaroni is Macaroni

And Noodles are noodles................unless  you are my husband....and then you might think they are all spaghetti??? I never even had spaghetti on my list!


 I had written noodles on my list...........................you know like you might use for chicken noodle soup???? I wanted to go to the grocery store with Kevin but my son and daughter were on the way over so I stayed here.
The following day I found a box of macaroni  in the pantry.................husbands???
Yes, I often find things that I don't want in my cupboard. Hubby doesn't watch the sodium levels, and if I liked it 6 months ago he thinks I still like it and will continue to buy it......... He is trying but I guess I need to write more specific grocery lists. 
Sunday started out cool and cloudy but by late afternoon it was warm and sunny outside. I took my Kindle and found my comfy chair. Later a friend came over with shrimp salad for supper :-)
A couple of hours later the sky got dark, it started to rain, and the wind picked up. About 20 minutes later, the lawn was filled with branches, and the power was out so we settled down for a quiet evening. 
The 'natives' are getting restless.......The last day of school is later this week and the students and teachers are 'killing time'. My grandson wants to attend summer school...last year I took him but this year I can't drive. I guess it is just too hard for mom to take him,....dad doesn't live with them. He is in the gifted and talented program, but............I hate to see his enthusiasm and talent wasted.
I have a dr appointment this afternoon. I am being switched to another oral chemo pill, wish me luck! I can't wait to see what the new side effects are............(she says sarcastically).

Saturday, June 4, 2016

I Love It When My Kids Come To Visit

I got lucky today.....My daughter called yesterday and said she'd like to visit on saturday after Cole finished his 5K . He beat his personal best....17+ minutes. I'm happy with that.



His little sister has great form.....2 first places and one 2nd. I think her dance practice and big brother help a lot too.

She likes the doll house.

  My two fancy girls sitting at the bar.

 Mom and brother joined in.


Pretty as a picture!

My son called this morning and asked if we were going to be home .....we were.....so he came over also. A couple of friends stopped over too. .....busy afternoon. We chit chatted for a bit and then went off to the museum and the kids got ice cream.
It was just a nice afternoon!
No plans for tomorrow................If if doesn't rain I hope to plant more flowers.

Tuesday, May 31, 2016

Catching Up

Did you read my Heaven & Hell post?
If not, I hope you'll read the following two paragraphs, it is very important!!!

"The other day when I was finished with chemo and waiting for Kevin to pick me up I was chatting with one of the super fantastic nurses about the end of life. She used to work in hospice care for several years and told me about one experience she had. The patient had a painful cancer and was on whatever pain meds were available. She did not believe in Jesus or the Bible. She invited all sorts of people into her home at the end to attempt to figure this out: from tarot card readers to a Baptist minister. Finally, at the very end, she was given the same thing a surgery patient is given to 'knock them out'. When she passed a terrible, loud, blood curdling, piercing scream could be heard for 3 blocks. I think she had just fallen into hell's fire. How awful. I've never heard of anything like that, I have heard of people saying that  family members are there to greet them, that they've seen a bright light, of smiles. One of the hospice nurses quit right after that job. Now you know why I want you to believe and to be in heaven with me! You can become a believer in the last 5 minutes of your life, but we don't know when the end of life will come and if you'll have 5 minutes to become a Christ follower.
Hell is an ETERNAL fire, not for me!"

the following is a comment from one of my followers. 

"Our friend, Mike, sat with an old friend of his that was dying. He was an atheist and Mike had been working with him for a long time to get him to believe in God and the bible. He said he KNEW but religion wasn't for him. Mike swears that when he died (he was sitting there with him) that there was a dark "fog" that rolled into the room and hovered over him and he died with an agonized look on his face. Now, if it had been anyone but Mike I might have been hesitant to believe it. However, there was a nurse and relative in the room that also saw it. The nurse said she had never seen anything kike it and it scared her badly." 

Did you survive the first holiday weekend of the summer? We had a quiet weekend........... Saturday night Jalen came over and stayed overnight, we went to church Sunday morning.....it had been months since I've been there. Sunday a couple of my friends came over and helped me pull weeds from my flower garden. Monday was very nice, Kevin drove one of the city 'dignitaries in the parade in our convertible. I wanted to plant my 3 tomato plants, but it was too warm for me so I sat on the deck and did some reading. I did get one plant planted....2 more tomatoes and many flowers to go. After Kevin got home from golfing (yes, I was a golf widow most of the afternoon) we took the convertible and went to eat. Kev was nice enough to allow me to choose the restaurant - the new Mexican place in town. Kev doesn't care for ethnic food....but he had tacos with ONLY cheese and beef. I had seafood enchiladas......that just didn't agree with me, I did not feel good when I went to bed. I actually took an anti-nausea pill before I went to sleep. I think I have that place out of my system for a while.
I was good after that. This morning I had a an appointment with the Home Heath care nurse  and then onto my oncologist. Since I have neuropathy and drop foot he decided to change my chemo to an oral pill.  Hopefully the drop foot will go away and I will be able to walk and drive again. It is really hard not to be able to drive myself around!!!! Dr wanted me to walk on my toes (not happening) and my heels next ( that didn't happen either).Today was a free day. I go back next week for a chest x-ray and find out about the drug. Of course, everything has to be ok'ed with the insurance company.
I'll keep you posted on my new chemo journey! 
Come back soon!

Wednesday, May 25, 2016

Do You Believe In Heaven And Hell? (warning - long Christian post)

I do, I definitely do, and I am going to Heaven.
How do you get to Heaven? Through Jesus, by believing and having a relationship with Him. I am not a very scholarly person when it comes to the Bible, but I know what I believe and to get into heaven you MUST believe in God!


                  John 14:1-6New International Version (NIV)Jesus Comforts His Disciples14 “Do not let your hearts be troubled. You believe in God[a]; believe also in me. My Father’s house has many rooms; if that were not so, would I have told you that I am going there to prepare a place for you?And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am. You know the way to the place where I am going.”Jesus the Way to the FatherThomas said to him, “Lord, we don’t know where you are going, so how can we know the way?”Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.

Following are some of my favorite verses about heaven and hell. 

Our God is a loving God:
John 4:8-10

8Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love.
9This is how God showed his love among us: He sent his one and only Son into the world that we might live through him.


10This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins.







John 3:1616For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.

He wants us to spend eternity in Heaven with Him. Heaven can not be explained......it is more beautiful than anything we have ever seen....maybe you've heard stories of people who have 'been to Heaven' but it was not their time and they returned to earth. It is very comforting, but I'm not sure how much of that I believe.

He wants us to spend eternity in Heaven with Him. Heaven can not be explained......it is more beautiful than anything we have ever seen....maybe you've heard stories of people who have 'been to Heaven' but it was not their time and they returned to earth. It is very comforting, but I'm not sure how much of that I believe.



The other day when I was finished with chemo and waiting for Kevin to pick me up I was chatting with one of the super fantastic nurses about the end of life. She used to work in hospice care for several years and told me about one experience she had. The patient had a painful cancer and was on whatever pain meds were available. She did not believe in Jesus or the Bible. She invited all sorts of people into her home at the end to attempt to figure this out: from tarot card readers to a Baptist minister. Finally, at the very end, she was given the same thing a surgery patient is given to 'knock them out'. When she passed a terrible, loud, blood curdling, piercing scream could be heard for 3 blocks. I think she had just fallen into hell's fire. How awful. I've never heard of anything like that, I have heard of people saying that  family members are there to greet them, that they've seen a bright light, of smiles. 
One of the hospice nurses quit right after that job. 
Now you know why I want you to believe and to be in heaven with me! You can become a believer in the last 5 minutes of your life, but we don't know when the end of life will come and if you'll have 5 minutes to become a Christ follower.

Hell is an ETERNAL fire, not for me!

"Then he will say to those on his left, 'Depart from me, you who are cursed, into the eternal fire prepared for the devil and his angels."

Matthew 25:42 NIV


Mark 9:43-48New International Version (NIV)43 If your hand causes you to stumble, cut it off. It is better for you to enter life maimed than with two hands to go into hell, where the fire never goes out. [44] [a] 45 And if your foot causes you to stumble, cut it off. It is better for you to enter life crippled than to have two feet and be thrown into hell. [46] [b] 47 And if your eye causes you to stumble, pluck it out. It is better for you to enter the kingdom of God with one eye than to have two eyes and be thrown into hell, 48 where“‘the worms that eat them do not die,    and the fire is not quenched.’[c]



Job 19:23-27New International Version (NIV)

23 “Oh, that my words were recorded,    that they were written on a scroll,24 that they were inscribed with an iron tool on[a] lead,    or engraved in rock forever!25 I know that my redeemer[b] lives,    and that in the end he will stand on the earth.[c]26 And after my skin has been destroyed,    yet[d] in[e] my flesh I will see God;27 I myself will see him    with my own eyes—I, and not another.    How my heart yearns within me!

 15 Therefore,“they are before the throne of God    and serve him day and night in his temple;
and he who sits on the throne    will shelter them with his presence.16 ‘Never again will they hunger;    never again will they thirst.
The sun will not beat down on them,’[a]    nor any scorching heat.17 For the Lamb at the center of the throne    will be their shepherd;
‘he will lead them to springs of living water.’[b]    ‘And God will wipe away every tear from their eyes.’[c]
Revalation 7 NIV


Revelation 21:1-4New International Version (NIV)
A New Heaven and a New Earth
21 Then I saw “a new heaven and a new earth,”[a] for the first heaven and the first earth had passed away, and there was no longer any sea.I saw the Holy City, the new Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God, prepared as a bride beautifully dressed for her husband. And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, “Look! God’s dwelling place is now among the people, and he will dwell with them. They will be his people, and God himself will be with them and be their God. ‘He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death’[b] or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.”
Revelation 21:22-27New International Version (NIV)

22 I did not see a temple in the city, because the Lord God Almighty and the Lamb are its temple. 23 The city does not need the sun or the moon to shine on it, for the glory of God gives it light, and the Lamb is its lamp. 24 The nations will walk by its light, and the kings of the earth will bring their splendor into it. 25 On no day will its gates ever be shut, for there will be no night there. 26 The glory and honor of the nations will be brought into it. 27 Nothing impure will ever enter it, nor will anyone who does what is shameful or deceitful, but only those whose names are written in the Lamb’s book of life.

Revelation 22:1-5New International Version (NIV)

Eden Restored
22 Then the angel showed me the river of the water of life, as clear as crystal, flowing from the throne of God and of the Lamb down the middle of the great street of the city. On each side of the river stood the tree of life, bearing twelve crops of fruit, yielding its fruit every month. And the leaves of the tree are for the healing of the nations. No longer will there be any curse. The throne of God and of the Lamb will be in the city, and his servants will serve him. They will see his face, and his name will be on their foreheads. There will be no more night. They will not need the light of a lamp or the light of the sun, for the Lord God will give them light. And they will reign for ever and ever.