Saturday, March 28, 2015

A Regular Day

I have been feeling really wonderful.....just like my normal self. I want to do a lot of things...but will my body cooperate? I will find out.
Monday I am seeing the electrophysiologist to see how my heart rhythms are and what we can do. Until then I am enjoying sitting at my table and watching the purple finches, sparrows, and chickadees at my bird feeder. It's sunny but cold here and there isn't much improvement predicted for the next week.

Yesterday, after radiation, I picked up my bff and we went to see my granddaughter, who was having her knee scoped. The facility she was at is about 60 miles away. She's 14, my oldest granddaughter,  and a runner.  She was happy to find a Starbucks card in the card I gave her and a candy bar in Deb's card. Deb and I had a good time, we haven't had a day like that in a long time. We had lunch at HuHot (I did find some low sodium foods that I can eat). Both of us have dietary restrictions so it can be a challenge to find eating places. I didn't feel like doing a lot of shopping so I chose to go to a craft store instead of a thrift store. I didn't pick up very much at Michael's but it was fun to look. 

surgery is over, having a snack and ready to go home......err...have lunch at Buffalo Wild Wings

I am still in play mode and not cleaning mode. Thursday afternoon I made some Easter cards. I think I need to make a few more for the grands that I won't see at Easter.


I don't do much stamping anymore, I like the die cuts I make on my Silhouette and often I print the sentiments. 

The weekend is here...............enjoy!!!!

Thursday, March 26, 2015

A Blessing In Disguise?

I have an awful memory but do remember the weirdest things.
My childhood is a blur.....sometimes I wonder if it happened.
You'd think I'd remember when my brother was born (I was 4) but I don't. I don't even remember when my sister was born (I was 8). I think I remember running in a grassy yard...where??? I do have a very few pictures of my first years, even they don't bring my memory back. 
I do remember a few things from my preteen and teens years and that is about it. We were poor when I was little and lived with my paternal grandparents. Before I was 2 my baby sister was still born and my father died, all within a month's time. Since my mother was not liked by her mother in law we must have moved somewhere else. I believe my mother had 'nervous breakdown' at that time. Two  years later she was remarried and had a baby. I don't remember any of that. I know we lived in a teeny tiny trailer because there is a photo.  I know that later some of our cousins lived with us for a bit...no memories of that either. I do remember going to my aunts and walking around her yard and looking at her flowers, I remember my cousin giving me an almost used up tube of green mascara. I remember the bookshelf games....do you remember those? the game folded into what looked like a book and therefore fit on a bookshelf. I thought those were so neat. 
Sometimes I wonder if my lack of memory is a good thing. Were those times in my life too hard???? and I just blocked those memories??? No, I don't have alzheimers, I have always been like this. I remember day to day things, appointments, etc. just not my past.

The past year has been full of blessings:
* my cancer is gone
*I've connected with some new friends
* friends that are here have helped me when needed
*I was blessed with the chance to choose retirement before I was diagnosed so I was able to stay home and take care of myself
*my body is healing and I feel good now
*I've had some side effects but all have successfully treated
*I have good doctors & nurses care for me
*I know that I can deal with what happens....'Que sera sera'
I know there are many more that I have not written down here.


I can not say cancer has been a blessing, I am not that intuitive. I just can't say. I know I've had 8 or more chemo treatments last year, some that lasted nearly all day. I remember the date of the last one. I know I had some pretty lazy, nap filled days when I had to force myself to eat. I know that last summer I refused to let anyone see me without a head covering on. I know there were days when I could barely walk 10' and I spent most of my days in the recliner. I know those things but don't have a clear memory of those days and I am glad.
Is my bad memory a blessing?
I seem to remember the good & happy times in my life....sadly, I only remember the bad times in my first marriage.

That is just some of the stuff I think about when I can't sleep.

Oh! I almost forgot....how could I?
I have passed the 1/2 mark for my radiation treatments. Woo Hoo!!! So far everything looks good. If I do have some burning I don't expect it until the last week of treatment.

Thanks for reading my ramblings.

Wednesday, March 25, 2015

You Can Sweep Carpet and Other Nonsense

Yesterday  I watched HSN's 24 hour crafting event. Yes, I had it on when I was home and did not buy a thing. While watching I was inspired to make an Easter banner, my first. I should have made my letters in a very dark or white color. (I Won't mention my other mistakes) I used my silhouette and it was pretty easy. The next time I make one I will have a better idea of what I want to do.



I can't get outside (we had some snow this morning and it's too cold) and I didn't want to clean...so I played.  



This afternoon I cut out a couple more page layouts with the silhouette....but that's hard for me to do when I am not working on the actual page....I'm not sure of what I'll want to do. 
Then I looked at my mess and decided to straighten up......I can mess up my area in no time flat! 
The basement floor was littered with at least a years worth of paper scraps.....at least I know I have not vacuumed the floor for a year....and I was tired of looking at it.  Instead of picking up the bigger scraps I swept them into a pile and used the dust pan to pick up. I am not sure how good the vacuum would have handled them. I hauled the vacuum downstairs and vacuumed the rest. It will look good until the next time I 'play' downstairs. 
I remember sweeping the carpet in one of my first apartments. We were upstairs and the steps would get so dirty....the other upstairs tenant didn't clean them. I felt it was the first impression people would get of our apartment, even though they only led to the apartment. Since our vacuum wasn't the kind I could use on the steps, I swept them.
So, yes, you can sweep carpet (if it's a really low pile carpet such as indoor/outdoor) in a pinch. Just thought you'd want to know.


Tuesday, March 24, 2015

No. 1 or No. 2

I waffle.
I read your comments and decided to mat my J, yes our last name starts with a J. 
I didn't want to use the same fabric as I have on the bulletin board, they are too close together and it would be too 'matchy, matchy'.....I like to be different. So I thought of some pretty paper or maybe fabric. Hobby Lobby had their posters at 90% off. There was another one that caught my eye but this one came home with me.


yes, the J has to be crooked to fit in the frame the only way I can get it to fit.
 But then I thought some burlap would add interest. I didn't find any burlap at the thrift store but I found some counted cross stitch fabric in my stash. 

I am undecided!!!
Help! 
What should I do????
Here is my original post ....the J.

Monday, March 23, 2015

The Invention Of Wings

Are you a reader? I am. One of the few good things about last summer was that I was able to sit on the deck and read without feeling guilty. I am sure I'll make time to do that again this summer.  It's still too cold to sit outside...and snow is predicted. (insert very sad face)                                                                                                           
I recently finished reading this book for book club. Several years ago I tried to read THE SECRET LIVES OF BEES by the same author and couldn't get into it.  I really enjoyed this book, the past several nights, when I was so tired, I'd cozy up in my bed and read for an hour or so until my eyes got tired. I still couldn't fall asleep but I did get the book finished. This is an historical fiction book, based on the Grimke sisters, the first women abolitionists who caused quite a stir in the south during the mid 1800's. It's written from the perspective of Sarah Grimke and the slave she was given, Handful. They take turns telling the story so you get to see both viewpoints.


I am sure we'll have some good discussion at book club tomorrow night.... and some good food too! So far everyone I have talked to liked the book.

Now I need to find a new book to read. 

Sunday, March 22, 2015

My Corner Of The Basement

 I didn't have to get up at any certain time saturday, but I was up again before 8. It's so much nicer when I don't have to be some place.
I am SLOWLY organizing my scrapbook area and this is what I did.
I started collecting J's and put this one inside a 24" tall frame. I think it looks cute and personalizes my corner.I am thinking of putting a white background behind the J, what do you think?

The adjacent wall of my corner is pretty dark. It's brighter if I have the lights on, only had one on today. I don't know what I am going to do with the frame hanging on the wall....something...someday.

Here's the after. I covered a 32" X 22" ugly bulletin board with this colorful fabric. It is bright, cheerful, and busy, and I love it! Of course I found the fabric at the thrift store. If you look closer you can see some more J's.

As you can see we have really ugly, old wood paneling on the basement walls. I detest it...but no way am I or hubby going to paint it. I also refuse to take everything off the walls and pay someone to paint it....so I am destined to have ugly walls..........FOREVER. So I will keep covering the walls with stuff to hide the paneling. 
The basement is never going to be all white and a pretty scrapbooking room like in the magazines, but I try to organize it a bit so it is somewhat inviting for me to 'play' in.

I also took one binder and cleaned it out and got rid of it. I know it's not a big thing but it is one more item that is not taking up space. 
Ahhhh, what else can I do now???

Saturday, March 21, 2015

Just Messin' Around

I didn't know what I wanted to do the other day. I tried to sleep, but that didn't work out. I could have done some cleaning...but that will wait. So I went downstairs and played around with some scrapbook pages. I cut out a few designs with my Silhouette. These are 12 X 12 pages.

Two pages are for our Texas trip and 3 are for a trip to Holland MI for the tulip festival with a bus full of Red Hatters. I even found some tulip stickers in my stash. ***smile***

 I am not sure if the wagon wheel will be on this color of paper or not. It's hard to believe, with all of the paper I have, that I don't own the color I want.



The road trip can be sized for project life pages or bigger (like I did here), that's what I like about my Silhouette. 



I make pretty simple designs.
And I am happy with that.
The finished pages may or may not come back, it depends upon how they turn out.

We had a really nice time last night when we were out for fish with our friends.We could have stayed longer but we were kicked off of our table, it's not a big place. Everyone's food was delicious.....I had to cheat and eat a portion of my REAL dill pickle, I dipped my baked cod into the butter, and had the potato salad. Thankfully my scale was good to me this morning.
While we were there I met a woman who also had a bout with breast cancer and had a lumpectomy, so we talked a bit. Everyone else was sitting down in our group so I didn't talk too long to her. I hope we go out more often, it was fun.

Thanks for stopping by.

Friday, March 20, 2015

Friday Silliness

 My first and only stop today was radiation where I was greeted by the new receptionist. As you can see she can quite easily multitask. She is kinda quiet, I don't even know her name. Do you think I need to report the fact that she didn't have her nametag on?

I picked up my locker key and went to change. I finally noticed that my dressing room has a star on it. **Sweet**

When I got home I found my order from Healthy Heart Market. I had ordered some low/no sodium pickles and jerky. I was excited to see the pickles I LOVE pickles. Their beef jerky is excellant!!!

I open one jar of pickles and didn't care for those (sad face - I ordered 2 jars of that one b/c it had such good ratings). I'll try them on sandwiches and hope for the best. I still have 2 others to try. I do have 3 more small jars of my favorite pickles here. 

I'm excited because tonight we are going out with friends/family for fish. Kevin wants to do something nice for the gals who helped me and continue to drive me to doctor appointments. We certainly make it fun....we shop, we eat....you know things women to best. It will be good to get out, we haven't been out in ages. As the weather gets nicer I am sure hope that will change. 

The sun is trying to peek out **smile**
How can one person make such a mess in one room (my kitchen)??? Guess it's time to clean up my my mess. 

Happy First Day of Spring!!!

Thursday, March 19, 2015

I Wasn't Going To....

...stop at the thrift store today, but I did. After radiation I stopped at the drugstore to get my prescription (I do that far too many times) and I had a lightheaded spell before I left the store. My alarm did not go off. I planned to run into the grocery store and pick up some tea (I drink tons of tea) and then just go home. Before I knew it my car turned into the thrift store. 
I picked up a rug to put by the back door. It's a little bigger than the one I have now. It's in good condition, except 2 of the corners are coming loose...so is the corner in the rug I have now. That  one was purchased new. I put some silicone on the underside of the corners and I am thinking they'll hold until the rug gets too dirty. It was $1.00 so when it's dirty I won't worry about throwing it out. 


I also picked up 2, current magazines and a headband. I have an idea for the headband....a craft project. All of this for $1.89, not a bad deal, huh?

I'm having a quiet week......love it. 
I did see the dermatologist yesterday and she froze a precancerous spot on my hand. That also happens a lot to me.

The weekend is almost here..........not that it matters to me....every day is a weekend day for me.

Tuesday, March 17, 2015

"Playing" / Scrapbook Page

Completed day 13 of radiation, over 1/3 done....and the fatigue is hitting me. I ran a few errands after treatment and came home and laid down. How can a person be tired but not fall asleep??? I did doze off for a little while b/c I woke up. I ate some lunch and finished a scrapbook page and now it's time to think about dinner, but I am sooooo tired. Guess I better get used to it. I think I am going to start setting my alarm in the morning b/c today I woke up after 8 and my appointment is at 9:30. I sleep best in the morning.

I got this treat from the nurses in radiation. They spoil us...and I like it :-)

This is the page I finished. 
I saw it on facebook and adapted it to my liking.
 

Actually it didn't turn out quite the way I planned, but I like it.
Who knows....I may try something like this again.

These are all 9 of my grandchildren.

Thanks for visiting me.

Monday, March 16, 2015

Our God Is An Awesome God/One Year Later

I don't remember the exact date but I know it's been a year since I found the lump in my breast. It's been a rough road but He has brought me through it and is still taking care of me. My God IS an awesome God. This is one of my favorite songs.




I received a call from the radiation department this morning and the machine is down. Hopefully they'll get it fixed today and I can go in for my treatment. I am on a tight schedule. In the meantime I will go grocery shopping....sigh...



Here's my new look. Yes, I spike my hair up like that, it's my Annie Lennox look. It looks stupid if I just brush it down on my forehead. It's hard to see in the picture but my hair has a tinge of light strawberry blonde in it. It's growing....slowly!

No sun today..................waaaaaaaaaaaaa

Saturday, March 14, 2015

The Month of February


I finished my project life for  February.


I really enjoy doing this and being able to look back at the highlights of the month.

Friday, March 13, 2015

Short and Humerous Post/My New Glasses

I picked up my new glasses today, they are really different from my old ones; dark frames and blue sides. I would never have chosen blue before, but with my white hair it goes. 
Don't look too closely....or you'll see my globby eyelashes, lousy make up job, big nose, and old skin.



Day 11 of radiation, 1/3 of the way through....happy dance. Tomorrow I can sleep in and get dressed when I feel like it.....another happy dance.

It's 40 degrees today (yes, it is warmer everywhere else in WI) and hubby took the day off to golf.....will they actually golf? I don't care, especially if he brings a fish lunch home for me.

I stopped at the thrift store day and picked up an American Heart Association  hardcover cookbook for $1.....cheap recipe source. 
I also found a brand new 8 X 8 scrapbook for one of my girls, it was $4, originally $19.99.


I contains stickers and die cuts.


Each page protector is filled with colored paper.


I am carrying my cell phone in my back pants pocket...not b/c I am expecting any phone calls....but I'm using it as a pedometer. Wish me luck! I had 4117 yesterday. I know that's nowhere near the 10,000 I should have, but at least now I have an idea of how many steps I get in a day.

Thursday, March 12, 2015

Thrifting and Eating

This has been a busy week; between doctor appointments, errands, shopping with friends, lunches with friends, and lunch with my grandsons, I have been gone a lot. Loved every minute of it though.
Monday I had an appointment, yes, we planned a date, to go thrifting with a friend who had a gift certificate to use up. She tried on these funky shoes, I couldn't convince her to buy them though. She did get a new rolling tote and I got an umbrella that will attach to my lawn chair....I need to stay out of the sun.


We stopped at another thrift store and met this 'pot head'?
No one brought him home either. 

Later we had lunch at Applebee's, it's not the best place to eat if you are on a low sodium diet. 
Yesterday I went to see one of my cardiologists and get an ECHO (see yesterday's post). Of course we had to have lunch. We ate at Zebbs, which is near the hospital...we were starving. My friend had the homemade chicken pot pie. Can you say huge? She couldn't even manage to eat 1/2 of it. The chicken chunks were not the teeny tiny ones you usually see. Everything there is homemade, and you can tell. She took a big piece of strawberry shortcake home for later in the day. 



I had a wrap, it was pretty big too. Since I am watching my sodium our waitress bent the rules a bit and gave me fruit and a side salad instead of the soup and fries. My lunch was delish too! My weight was up a little this morning so I may have overdone it with the salt. 

After lunch we stopped at the Fresh Market store so I could get my low sodium dill pickles.....I bought the last 5 jars they had. I'll be back in a month to get more!!! A few other low sodium snacks came home with me too. Carla is a member of Costco so we stopped there too and I found some low sodium, baked, Snapea Crisps. They are good! We watched the Ninja blender demos and I had all 3 of the samples she passed out. We also noticed a Meijer store is opening up in June. It's just down the road from Costco. I wonder how that will affect Costco. I've never been to Meijer but my 2 radiation nurses love that store. 

Today I had radiation, all is going well. I had lunch with 2 of my grandsons at school today, first they read and then we eat. This afternoon I am cleaning out some odds and ends that I had saved for the grandsons to be creative build things with...but we haven't used them...so off to recycling or garbage they go.

That's about it for my busy week. Next week will be a little quieter. Hope you're having a great week too!

Wednesday, March 11, 2015

A Scare And A Smile


I have been feeling quite good lately, doing well with the radiation too. Yesterday I was gone bumming with a friend for most of the day and later in the afternoon I was attempting to clean out an area in the basement so the telephone (Charter) guy can check the wiring. We have 4 telephones in the house and only one in the basement works....what??? Anyway.....after dinner I was just sitting in front of the computer and I started to feel light headed, warm, things started to get dark...then my defibrillator alarm went off. I pressed the response buttons and felt better. Kev, who was in the next room didn't even hear it. He asked why I hadn't said anything to him when I started feeling weird....b/c I wasn't sure if I could yell so he'd hear me and I didn't know if it would just go away or not. About one half hour later I called Zoll and asked what had happened, I knew it wasn't just movement related like all of my previous alarms had been. I found out that my heart rate was 190 beats per minute for about 15 seconds.....it may not seem like a long time...but.... The day before I was told I had a similar episode for about 8 seconds. 
If that doesn't  put 'the fear of God' in you....guess maybe it just scared me a bit and I was reminded again how fragile life is. I have an appointment with that cardiologist later this month to find out what we will do about my very irregular heartbeats.
Today I had an ECHO and saw my other cardiologist.
The good news is my EF is up from 19% to 34%. That certainly made me grin!!! Anything over 50% is good. He wants to do another in 2 months. He did increase my carvedilol (one of my heart medications), the one that lowers my blood pressure. I am not looking forward to that.
I'm having a great week bumming around with friends.....more to follow.