I can't commit myself to the things I want to do, to the places I want to go.......
especially during the next year. I can't make any plans... I'm not sure what my life will be like in the next several months. I have to take it day by day, week by week, month by month.
This (unwanted) journey that I am on has me sucked me in like quicksand.
I just have to wait it out and play the game.
Take some time off.
I had so many plans for this summer, my first summer of retirement.
I'm in good heath, the grandkids are young and want to do things with me, I have friends to travel with, to accompany me to events....but...
God steps in and says....not your plans but MY plan.
I am trusting HIM and know I'll get though this and next year will be better.
(Our weather has been lousy anyway.....trying to console myself.)
Today, as with any day, if I feel good I try to get as much done as I want.
One of my friends told me that the worst part is being so tired at the end.
Usually, this week before my treatment I feel great, but I've had 3 chemos so far and it seems to be catching up with me. I get tired early in the evening/late afternoons, so I watch TV after supper. There's no harm in going to bed early, is there?
So what if my projects get pushed off for another year??? They've been waiting years already.
Feeling tired, but good today......
Errands to run, things to do, strawberry shortcake to make.....
HAVE A HAPPY AND SAFE JULY 4TH!!!