This morning, when it was still dark, I awoke .....nothing unusual. What popped into/out of my mind was "'Thy will be done....".
As a Christian I know it's from the Lord's Prayer.When our grandson spends the night we say it together before we go to bed. Last night he told me he'd say it in his head. OK.
Several years ago I took a course at our church, the adult confirmation class. I was confirmed as an 8th grader but wanted to review and am glad I did. As a teen we just want to get through it, we really don't care that much about what it means.....at least I don't think I did. In the adult class we dug deeper and asked more thoughtful questions. "Thy will be done".....NOT our will, but HIS will. If you think about it it's not an easy thing to ask for.
So why did that phrase pop into my head? I had not fallen asleep praying that sentence.
Maybe because I have another chemo treatment tomorrow.......I am stressing about it (don't reprimand me for it, it's hard not to).....it will be a long day and an 'icky' week lies ahead. I am trying to concentrate on TODAY, but I am human.
Do I need to be reminded that HIS will WILL be done? I have absolutely no control. ......probably.
I am also worried about my grandsons, their parents have been separated for several weeks and I don't think they will be able to reconcile, which is probably for the best. Their whole marriage has been 'off' since day 1. The boys have never had a stable home life and I worry for them.
I am thankful for the cards, phone calls and prayers I continue to receive. I thank all of my friends for their support.