I know He has a plan and I know my measly, little mind can not comprehend it, even when I try to guess what it might me.
I believe we must believe and live by faith and not by sight.
'So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal'
2 Corinthians 4:18
A question I was asked recently " Where did God come from?"
and "what if we all are just someone's imagination" (in their head)?
or "what about life on other planets?" I was told they proved that life could be supported on Mars.
or "there are all kinds of videos on youtube explaining how we evolved."
and" man wrote the Bible and it has changed from the original writings."
All I can say is--
"for we walk by faith, not by sight"2 Corinthians 5:7
I can't answer any of the above questions, I just do not have the knowledge, I only believe. I believe He has a plan for me. I can't even attempt to guess even though I try.
There are things in my life that were allowed to happen, things that hurt me a great deal. ...but life went on.
When I was 32 I was in an auto accident and developed a serious complication that put me in intensive care for several days. The minister was called, they didn't think I'd make it. But He pulled me through it.
Last year I was diagnosed with breast cancer, and if you are a regular reader you know all of the side effects I contracted. I was very sick, my heart was very bad, so bad that a transplant would have been in my future if the cancer was not present.
My EF was 19% (it should be 55-75%). This year is has improved to 34% and now is at 43%.
This was doctor week for me. I saw the oncologist, the cardiologist, the radiation dr, and a surgeon. One thing that was done was an Echo for my heart. I don't know who was more excited to see the report: me or the cardiologist. We were both very happy. I will be on my meds for life, but hey I am doing just great!
I feel really good, in fact what bothers me now is my knee....it has for several years....I feel just as good as I did 2 years ago. God has pulled me through another serious condition. What does He have in mind for me????
Hubby has been job hunting with no luck so far. We did purchase insurance but now we will have to meet the deductible again....it was so nice to have everything covered under his work insurance. It worked out really well that I had many of my dr appointments already scheduled for this week. When I saw my oncologist he told me that my medical port could come out. Oh no!!! There were only 2 days left in the week that I could have it done and still have it covered under our insurance. I waited a day for a phone call...none. I was at the same clinic so was stopped over at the oncologist and talked to them and the nurse made another call to the surgeons office (of course they are in different cities). Less than an hour later I received a call from the surgeons office....they could only do it that afternoon. "I'll be there", I said. I found a friend to go with me, hubby was scheduled to golf and they don't have any extras on their team (he would have taken me if no one else could), Thank God for my friends - one took me to Milwaukee the day before and a different one came with me to Green Bay yesterday. I was 'deported' yesterday (my medical port was removed).
It was a very simple procedure, done in the office. The worst part was the freezing...again, who likes to have a shot in their breast? who??? I talked steadily to the nurse to get my mind off the pressure I was feeling. The port removal went quickly and the dr explained everything thoroughly. I think it took the longest for the nurse to put pressure on the site (cautionary measure b/c of my intake of coumadin).
I really didn't need anyone to come with me (I wasn't aware of that at the time) but it was really nice to have some time to visit with Carolee, she's a busy gal.
Yesterday was a beautiful day! It was 79 in Green Bay (less than an hour away) but 59 here....such is life living by the big lake. I had planned to pull weeds yesterday afternoon but the 'deportation' had to take precedence. Today it's raining so no weed pulling.....guess there will be more days to attempt that task.
If you've stayed awake long enough to read this long post I'm going to say "Have a GREAT weekend!!!"
I don't know where the past week went.
Linda, You and your husband are in my prayers. I pray he gets a good job and I pray you will not need so many appointments and will have the insurance you need. Bless you, xoxo,Susie
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ReplyDeleteI am so glad that you are doing better. That must be such a relief. I will keep you and hubby in prayer. I don't know what hubby did before, but has he tried to get a job in the hospitals? Of course Green Bay would be a bit of a drive. Especially in winter. I know at St Mary's and St Vincent you don't have to work many hours (I can't remember if it is 16 or 20) to get basic insurance. That is automatic. For the emplyee. Don't have to sign up, you just get it with employment. Then you have a choice of buying more. Family, etc. I don't know how the other hospitals work their insurance. Just an idea. I don't know what your husband did for a job before.
ReplyDeleteSweet girl, we will pray for each other. My husband needs a job too and with insurance. It looks like this one in sales is not the best route for him and us right now. I can't imagine the journey you have had. I do pray for you often as you come to mind. God certainly has a plan even when we can't see. I love the words, "When you can't trace His hand, trust His heart." We all question. That is human. I feel in limbo, not knowing what is to come. I've always had a purpose and right now I can't figure that one out. Praying for your continued healing and peace through your questions.
ReplyDeleteI am so glad you were "deported" and that you are feeling so good, Linda. Sounds like your meds are working their magic, too. Have a great weekend- xo Diana
ReplyDeleteIt is lovely that your faith has helped you through some scary times and good to hear your good news!
ReplyDeleteHope your Hubby gets a job soon and then you can really celebrate! xxx
Your faith and positivity are always an inspiration to me! I'm glad to hear you were "deported" and are doing so well. Have a blessed and beautiful weekend!
ReplyDeleteI agree with Vicky Hunt. And I am very blessed to have you as my sister. Wished you were closer. Hope Kevin gets a job soon. As for 'the plan' God has for you....it equals LOVE.
ReplyDeleteI came to visit today before I go to the nursing home. I will be adding your family to my prayer list. I am a firm believer in prayer because my husband got sick in Nov. 1999 and I didn't think we would see the end of the year after being in and out of hospital every month. I have become one of your new followers. Thank you for stopping by my blog. Have a beautiful day ours is cloudy cool and rainy again today. Hugs and Prayers from Your Missouri Friend Shirley
ReplyDeleteSo glad I was able to go with you even though you didn't really need anyone along. It is always nice to spend time together and it makes the waiting time go faster. Such a nice post. You are an inspiration! With all those Dr. Appointments...of course...the week disappeared quickly! Best wishes for just the right job for Kevin.
ReplyDeletePort removed, such FANTASTIC news! Continued good health to you, Linda!
ReplyDeleteI hope your husband finds a good job, with good insurance benefits.
All the best to you!