A New Normal?

Is there such a thing as normal?

I checked my dryer... and it is not a setting....not on my mixer...and not on my iron either. So I am not sure what normal is.

Last year I thought I found my 'normal' ....but it was short lived. 

I haven't been searching very long this year....about 4-1/2 months.....but I still want to be 'normal'.

I want to walk normally.

I want to drive normally.
In the past I would often be the person who'd find a place to visit and many times I'd be the driver. I used to want to go places and do things, Now I don't know if I want to leave the house.....how tired will I be? what is my stomach going to feel like? I can't blame people if they don't ask me. Could I be the passenger for a change? I want to get in my car and run to the grocery store for an item I forgot.

I want to dress normally....hair would be nice.

I'm fortunate because my body has not been disfigured, I don't have any pain, my mind still works. 

I don't think any cancer patient ever feels 'normal'. The question "Will my cancer come back? when? where?" always looms in the back of a person's mind.
If  my new 'normal' is what it is today I can handle it.....I can live with some tiredness, my nausea happens at a specific time and doesn't last long, if I walk a little funny - deal with it (I do). Many people wear hats and wigs. If you tell me "Hurry up Grandma", that reflects on your poor upbringing/lack of manners not upon me.
I am blessed with loving, healthy grandchildren; with a nice house to live in; a caring husband who is doing the best he can; with medical insurance; money for food; family that loves me; a working body (for the most part); good friends. I have everything I need! God is good! I'm asking for a few years with my grands and a body that I can get around with.