Tuesday, June 14, 2016

A New Normal?

Is there such a thing as normal?
I checked my dryer... and it is not a setting....not on my mixer...and not on my iron either. So I am not sure what normal is.
Last year I thought I found my 'normal' ....but it was short lived. 

I haven't been searching very long this year....about 4-1/2 months.....but I still want to be 'normal'.
I want to walk normally.
I want to drive normally.
In the past I would often be the person who'd find a place to visit and many times I'd be the driver. I used to want to go places and do things, Now I don't know if I want to leave the house.....how tired will I be? what is my stomach going to feel like? I can't blame people if they don't ask me. Could I be the passenger for a change? I want to get in my car and run to the grocery store for an item I forgot.
I want to dress normally....hair would be nice.
I'm fortunate because my body has not been disfigured, I don't have any pain, my mind still works. 
I don't think any cancer patient ever feels 'normal'. The question "Will my cancer come back? when? where?" always looms in the back of a person's mind.
If  my new 'normal' is what it is today I can handle it.....I can live with some tiredness, my nausea happens at a specific time and doesn't last long, if I walk a little funny - deal with it (I do). Many people wear hats and wigs. If you tell me "Hurry up Grandma", that reflects on your poor upbringing/lack of manners not upon me.
I am blessed with loving, healthy grandchildren; with a nice house to live in; a caring husband who is doing the best he can; with medical insurance; money for food; family that loves me; a working body (for the most part); good friends. I have everything I need! God is good! I'm asking for a few years with my grands and a body that I can get around with.


  1. I can't imagine being in your position right now. You are in my prayers.

  2. Amen!
    Most people take everything for granted and are thankful for nothing.
    Your normal is a good normal to have.
    Rock on!
    Take care,

  3. Praying that you get exactly what you ask for! God is Good and will carry you thru these tough times! Sending HUGS and PRAYERS your way!

  4. You are welcome to be my passenger whenever and where ever! If you feel "up to it" we'll go!

  5. What a wonderful post, Linda! I will have to check the settings on my dryer too. I guess the only thing we can rely on is that change is always inevitable. It will be nice to visit the thrift stores!

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  7. The great attitude has gotten you this far and I know it will take you closer to healing. You go girl! Thankful that you are able to be vunerable. Tell it like it is! It feels good!