Yeah, that's kinda how I feel.
To heck with it!
I've been up and down (mostly) this week. I feel the same as ever, no better or worse...lethargic...don't give a damn if I do anything or not.
I'm not depressed or crying, just a little sad and don't care about much.
Kevin and I are handling everything quite well. I am so thankful that we both can see humor in most situations. Of course we have our serious talks too. It's just so nice that he sits down and talks to me more now.
I'm sure I'll get over it, hopefully sooner rather than later.
My appetite is not improving and I've lost a little weight again. I do eat 3 small meals a day and try to throw in a snack too. The only things I really like are my low sodium pickles and V-8 juice, neither which are very good for me. Hubby makes sure I eat.
It doesn't help that I just sit in the house and don't do anything other than read. I can't drive, I don't feel alert enough and with the nerves in my right foot screwed up I don't want to. When that happened 2 years ago I almost hit a car in a parking lot.....so I'll just wait.
The weather has something to do with staying in the house all day too. Our average temperature for this time of year is 52, but we are LUCKY to see the mid 40's and/or sunshine. Tomorrow's high is predicted to be 35. That's depressing in itself, huh?
I wanna go outside and read, walk around the yard to check if any flowers are coming up, and soak up some sun. I bet I could even crawl around and pull a few weeds.
I ordered a couple of cute hats and headbands today, I found 2 straw hats in my closet and with the ones I got last week I should have enough.
Still no dryer.....MAYBE thursday or friday. I sure hope so, the laundromat dryer did not do our clothes any favors. I told Kevin not to use anything other than the shortest cycle....he's doesn't listen very good either. There are many things that I would have not put in the dryer and/or hung up right away. Live and learn, I guess.
I think I'll look for a low sodium beef vegetable soup recipe, and easy recipe I can make, I like soup. And then I'll find a new book to read, I average one a day. I finished our book club book 2 days ago. I'd like to attend book club next week, hope I can remember what the book was about by that time. I have to start getting out of the house.
Chemo tomorrow, wish me well!