Saturday, April 9, 2016

How Am I?

That's a common question when someone has a health condition....how is so & so? I can imagine that friends & family get tired of being asked. Sometimes there is nothing new to say. 
That's one of the reasons this blog had turned (once again) into                                                 a cancer blog.  
People who don't see me often can know exactly how I am doing. I try not to sugar coat things, but I will spare you the gory details.....at least for now. 
After 4 rounds of chemo I am feeling somewhat better and feel like getting out of the house. I really can't do anything strenuous or walk very far, I get too pooped. I clomp along with my right foot, very slowly. I move in slow motion because I tend to be unsteady (& lightheaded) sometimes. Kevin does 99% of the housework. 
I'm not really nauseous but my stomach is not right either. Most of the time I don't really care to put anything in my mouth. I am having a hard time maintaining my lowest, ever adult weight. Kevin asks me every day what I ate.
I don't sleep very good, I wake up in the wee hours of the morning and try to get back to sleep.....sometimes it doesn't come until Kevin leaves for work after 5. I started taking melatonin last night....oh my...lotsa dreams. Dr says to give it 7 - 10 days. I'm always tired, or my eyes are........my mind runs in circles. 
I really miss my hair; my short, curly, oddly colored hair. I liked it...but it's gone. 
Last night we went to Buffalo Wild Wings to meet a former co-worker of Kevin's. That was the first time I had been out of the house  for something other than medical reasons. Previously I had no desire to leave or even get dressed. I put make up on and found a winter hat to wear, it was snowing and I thought a straw hat would look a bit out of place. (I'm looking up in this photo, the cap underneath doesn't show that much).
I actually ate nachos and 2 bites of a cheeseburger. 
As we were leaving I noticed that Van had the size sticker still on the back of his jeans. When I took off my sweater after we got home I was surprised to see that I had it on inside out. I think Kevin was dressed properly. What a motley crew we were. 

What do I do? I spend time on the computer and read a lot. I wash the dishes and will start doing the laundry. No day time TV for me. L.A.Z.Y
Emotionally I am OK also, or maybe good.......I'm getting better. Who wants to deal with the kind of diagnosis I received? I'm trying, I am. 
I am thankful to have the support of family and good friends.
Your prayers help too. Thanks!

15 comments:

  1. Good that you got out and "ate"something...I can't image how hard everyday is for you...Nice photo! Keeping you in my prayers.
    warmly,
    deb

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  2. Linda, You have a good sense of humor..motley crew. :):) Your humor will help you, your faith will give you some strength. I pray for you Linda. I would help more if I could. I hope you get to be the grandkids whenever you want. Hugs to you dear friend. If you wake in the night...I have insomnia, I will think of you. Blessings, xoxo,love, Susie

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    1. Sense of humor and faith is the answer....

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  3. I think you look great in the picture. I know you have been dealt a hard hand, but I feel that by keeping your spirits up and hanging onto your faith can be helpful. I pray that you are feeling better daily. Maybe you could write a post about what you are reading and suddenly the blog is not just about cancer.

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  4. you continue to have my prayers lovely lady.

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  5. I don't always get to leave a comment, but I will continue to pray for you. Cancer is a nasty word and I know what it can do. I have lost a sister-in-law to that nasty word. Hope you get to feeling better soon so you can do more of what you want to do. Hugs and Prayers from your Missouri Friend Shirley

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  6. I love that picture and that you got out!!!! I saw a bunch of hats at World Market. Miss the days when we could go there. Well, maybe we will find some things on our shopping day!
    Deb

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  7. Things happen with clothing don't they? One time I went to work with two different color shoes on and my sweater wrong side out. :-O

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  8. Hi Linda,
    I think you look really nice ....your eyes look sparkly. :-)
    I am glad you got out and about.
    I saw a fella once with the size sticker on his pants and I was not sure if I should tell him or not. ;-)
    Carla

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  9. You look really good! Love your smile and I love your attitude!

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  10. You look fantastic in this picture. Love your smile.
    This is your blog to talk about whatever you wish.
    Thanks for checking in :)
    Prayers and hugs to you,
    Monica

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  11. You look GREAT! I would be lost without your blog. I wish I could print out the ENTIRE thing for safe keeping. Praying for you and hoping I would feel better to see you. Still coughing and ribs are killing me. UGH!

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  12. Glad you were able to get out and enjoy some food. Nice picture. Hugs!

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  13. So glad you felt like getting out for a bit. I hope you keep on the healing path and get better every day! By the way, I've worn my sweater wrong side out, two different colored socks, and caught myself wearing a price tag out on a new blouse not too long ago! (Lol!)

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