You are probably not surprised to read that my head is spinning.............the thoughts spin around faster and I can't stop them. Thank God I have been getting some sleep, although 8 hours in a row would be nice. When I wake up in the wee hours I try to lay very still and not open my eyes.
I'm tired, it's an effort to talk and even to write this. It's hard to concentrate.
Breathing is best when sitting upright.
My legs ache, but my back has been OK.
I can't wait for bedtime.
Yesterday I had a medical port put in, it all went well. A port is a good thing, it saves your veins.
Tomorrow I will start taking an oral chemo pill (actually 5 of them) with a list of side effects as long as my arm. *sigh* In fact the pharmacy sends a package of products along for the side effects.
Tomorrow I am having a CT scan on my liver........and I have to drink 2 bottles of a barium 'shake'. I am afraid the anti nausea meds won't help............mornings are the worst. I can eat in the afternoon.
My fight mode comes and goes.
All I can think of is my grandchildren. And I feel so bad for the those who read this. This is an honest documentation of my journey.
Thanks again to my friends who are taking care of me, for the prayers, for the treats, for the kind words.