Today, as I was waiting for my car, I was thinking. That's about all my body is capable of lately. We'll get to that in a minute.
Autumn is a beautiful time of year to go for a drive in WI.
God gives us all this beauty to distract us from the cold, harsh winter that is coming.
It's even more beautiful if you drive past the lake (Lake Michigan).
I've come to realize that people with chronic pain do not walk around with a smile on their faces. They just do not have the energy to do so. I am not in pain but I feel sick to my stomach all of the time, it lessens, but it is there. So I walk around with my lips pursed, teeth clenched, and I am not smiling either. I see sad when I look in the mirror but maybe others see crabby.
I remember when I sold Avon (didn't everyone?) that we were told (when making calls) that people on the other end of the telephone can hear your smile. I believe it! I tried to smile when I answered the phone at work. My co-worker was told that she sounded cranky on the telephone, I don't think she was, but she sounded that way. I don't think she smiled when she said "hello". I wonder if I sound differently now.......probably.......sorry.
I just don't have the energy any more.
For years people would think I was mad,when they saw me. I was in pain just struggling along. I also notice, sometimes people take what I say the wrong way because I am not talking with a smile. Linda, you hit the nail on the head with this one.
ReplyDeleteThanks for the beautiful pictures. We loved WI when we came through two years ago to visit Carolee. You will be smiling soon. You enjoy life and all its beauty too much to lrt this keep you down. Sending (((((hugs)))))
ReplyDeleteHoney, you just do what you do to get through the day and the smile will return. You don't owe any apology to anyone. You don't have to pretend to be strong. Let others hold you up now as you have done for so many, I'm sure. I bless you, my friend and I know in my heart that you are an overcomer. I continue to pray for you as God places you on my heart. Bask in that view!
ReplyDeleteDear Linda, These photos are beautiful. I am keeping you in my prayers. ~ Catherine
ReplyDeleteI love your pictures! I bet you didn't take them while driving! I don't know about chronic nausea and fatigue, but at some point, you smile past the pain.
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