How Am I?

That's a common question when someone has a health condition....how is so & so? I can imagine that friends & family get tired of being asked. Sometimes there is nothing new to say. 

That's one of the reasons this blog had turned (once again) into                                                 a cancer blog.  

People who don't see me often can know exactly how I am doing. I try not to sugar coat things, but I will spare you the gory details.....at least for now. 

After 4 rounds of chemo I am feeling somewhat better and feel like getting out of the house. I really can't do anything strenuous or walk very far, I get too pooped. I clomp along with my right foot, very slowly. I move in slow motion because I tend to be unsteady (& lightheaded) sometimes. Kevin does 99% of the housework. 

I'm not really nauseous but my stomach is not right either. Most of the time I don't really care to put anything in my mouth. I am having a hard time maintaining my lowest, ever adult weight. Kevin asks me every day what I ate.

I don't sleep very good, I wake up in the wee hours of the morning and try to get back to sleep.....sometimes it doesn't come until Kevin leaves for work after 5. I started taking melatonin last night....oh my...lotsa dreams. Dr says to give it 7 - 10 days. I'm always tired, or my eyes are........my mind runs in circles. 

I really miss my hair; my short, curly, oddly colored hair. I liked it...but it's gone. 

Last night we went to Buffalo Wild Wings to meet a former co-worker of Kevin's. That was the first time I had been out of the house  for something other than medical reasons. Previously I had no desire to leave or even get dressed. I put make up on and found a winter hat to wear, it was snowing and I thought a straw hat would look a bit out of place. (I'm looking up in this photo, the cap underneath doesn't show that much).

I actually ate nachos and 2 bites of a cheeseburger. 

As we were leaving I noticed that Van had the size sticker still on the back of his jeans. When I took off my sweater after we got home I was surprised to see that I had it on inside out. I think Kevin was dressed properly. What a motley crew we were. 

What do I do? I spend time on the computer and read a lot. I wash the dishes and will start doing the laundry. No day time TV for me. L.A.Z.Y

Emotionally I am OK also, or maybe good.......I'm getting better. Who wants to deal with the kind of diagnosis I received? I'm trying, I am. 

I am thankful to have the support of family and good friends.

Your prayers help too. Thanks!