Chapter 1: Bye Bye Chemo and An Apology

Woo Hoo!

Yes, the chemo is over.....at least for now, unless I need a 'booster' in the future.

My blood work has been 'gorgeous' every time (to quote my dr) and the nurse who explains it to me says it is frame-able! Thanks to all of your prayers and the probiotics I take.

Chapter 2: Next I move on to only the Herceptin. It's not a chemo drug but is still given through my port and I have been getting it already so there are no new side effects to look for. That drip will last 30 minutes......so no more lunch at the clinic, I can deal with that. I forgot to ask the dr how long I'll get that but I know it is  longer term. One of the nurses guesstimated for about a year. I gotta do what I gotta do. I am waiting for the surgeon's call this week to schedule a consultation and surgery. Since I am pretty sure I am having a lumpectomy I am not worried......the lymph nodes removal concerns me a bit.

Radiation: Now this chapter scares me, I have heard too many horror stories.  Since I am having a smaller surgery I am hoping it won't be so bad....hoping!!!!   Painful burns :-(   Extreme fatigue.....I am tired of being tired. I don't have any specifics on the radiation yet, but you can bet I'll be updating you.

Looking forward to: *Having hair for the winter (what will it look like? now I'll have to figure out what to do with it again)

*Eyelashes

*Mascara and eye make up (I am very fair with blond eyelashes and brows, it will be nice to have eyes again)

*No more 'interesting' side effects from chemo

*No more constant watery eyes & runny nose

*Will I be able to wake up, well rested, at 5:30 and keep going all day until I sit down at 8???

*Today is my last day of Dexamethason  :-)

Thankful for: *Your prayers and friendship and comments

*The visits Carla blessed me with during my treatments

*The many calls, cards, and small gifts given to me out of love

*The doctors that I like

*The HER2 + cancer. Otherwise I'd be dealing with triple negative cancer, the most difficult kind, it often kills women. Herceptin is a game changer and targets the cancer cells.

*Great health insurance

*Good books and that I like to read

*Donating my head coverings back to the cancer center

I know the list will get longer....but I have to get dressed and take advantage of the day.....I'll be tired the rest of the week.

I feel I should apologize for my last depressing post. I guess I was having a 'poor me, nobody loves me' day. I woke up about 12:30 at night and was going to delete it but I read such a nice, caring comment that I just couldn't do it. Most of the time I am content and happy with my life and know that the cancer is just a temporary detour. I know I can not undo the mistakes I've made in the past and will have to accept that who I have as friends/family now are my friends/family. 

Thanks for visiting!

It IS fall.......time to put on my long pants now :-(